When we think we're strong, the emotions creep up on you when you least expect it. Either I have been handling it well or hiding everything under the rug. I'm not sure which right now.
I haven't seen the movie Steel Magnolias in a LONG time... Saw it on tonight and thought, "What the heck, let's watch that!" I don't think I made it in the first 30 mins without turning it off. If anyone remembers the first hair salon scene they discuss (and have to deal with) Shelby's health which results in her infertility. I couldn't watch any more. I just couldn't deal with it tonight.
It doesn't help Lawrence isn't here. The night I just need a hug from him... But he can't help it. (He's working...)
Normally, even right now late at night, I go upstairs and gently wake him just saying, "I need a hug". He never questions me as to why, what matters most is the hug first.
Does CNBC get any easier? Nope. Are some days better than others? Yes. Is tonight? No.
