HARD TOPIC. VERY SENSITIVE TOPIC. ABORTION. Yes this relates to Childless Not By Choice.
Sometimes the world is just 'too much'. That is this week for me. We've hit that age in life that people stop asking 'when are you going to have children' (I think the grey hair helps) but seeing situations and other people's decisions still rip out my heart. It is extremely hard when we live in a society where abortion is an easy and normalized form of birth control. No matter your beliefs on this subject, science even agrees - abortion ends a living beings' life. Period. Yes, there are medical situations and that is a whole other discussion, but IN MY OPINION, it should not be a form of easy birth control. (I understand that everyone has their different opinions about abortion, but this is my page - my thoughts - my opinions. Keep scrolling if you don't like it.)
That being said, it hits close to home for us when we have multiple friends trying to adopt and then someone we know decides they can't afford to raise another child and makes an appointment for an abortion. Yes, they were asked if they would adopt the child out, but their response was 'No'. They didn't want to know they had a child out there somewhere, but they were ok with killing it. Yes, it is killing a living being. This isn't a health situation, violence or anything in that realm - just they can't raise the child.
This is the heartbreak so many of us 'Childless Not By Choice' families go through. The expense of the adoption, not being chosen by the pregnant mother through an agency because we aren't blonde soccer moms and football coaches living in big houses, not able to foster because our hearts are ripped out every time. Then we look for an open adoption to only be told 'No', they would rather abort.
Welcome to the heartbreak. The tears. Why some days I can't function.
I'm not looking for answers. Just asking for understanding when my heart breaks and prayers for these families making the decision and our CNBC families.
Jenny
