How do you balance being joyful for your mother and the other mother's in your life on Mother's Day, yet deep down inside feel horrible for yourself?
Honestly, I feel like crap inside right now. I am not asking for sympathy or any one to pity me. But it's the truth. This Mother's Day is not the easiest for me, I feel like crap emotionally, but I want to rejoice and find joy in the mother's around me, especially my own.
It is not their fault I can't have children. So why can't I feel more joy? Why do I want to hide in the house this weekend and curl up in a ball?
I don't have the answer.
Please excuse me while I disappear this weekend, no offense to any one and I send my love to all the mother's around me....
"Infertility is like a spectator sport. I feel like I am the only one in the bleachers watching everyone else play, because I am unqualified to join the team." Meredith Hodge
How I feel inside today... ~Jenny
