So... Spring is almost here and I am already looking for my hole to hide in. Why?!?!
This year's CNBC anxiety started a little early. When waiting in the doctors office to be called back, and everyone starts chatting in the lobby, going around the room asking "how many kids do you have?" or "when are you due?". I slouch down in my chair and hope no one calls on me, like a kid who hasn't done their homework. I can't pick up a magazine because they are all about pregnancy and motherhood (yes I was at that doctor).
I handled Christmas pretty well, but now we have Easter and Mother's Day to deal with, which can be worse. Easter started weighing heavy on me this week. Yes there are the Easter church services, but beyond that we have nothing to do that day, no kids to hide eggs for, etc. Everyone's plans that day are wrapped around kid's and egg hunts. (I am NOT downing anyone for that!) But... when people ask what we are doing for Easter, what do I tell them?
Having those feelings about Easter made me look forward to Mother's Day? Uggghhhhh...
Yes, I can be strong a lot of the time and talk to people who ask about CNBC, but sometimes my best coping mechanism is to walk away. I gather up my heart, trust in God, and walk away from it all.