Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Spring is almost here... where is my hole to hide in?

So...  Spring is almost here and I am already looking for my hole to hide in.  Why?!?! 

This year's CNBC anxiety started a little early.  When waiting in the doctors office to be called back, and everyone starts chatting in the lobby, going around the room asking "how many kids do you have?" or "when are you due?".  I slouch down in my chair and hope no one calls on me, like a kid who hasn't done their homework.  I can't pick up a magazine because they are all about pregnancy and motherhood (yes I was at that doctor). 

I handled Christmas pretty well, but now we have Easter and Mother's Day to deal with, which can be worse.  Easter started weighing heavy on me this week.  Yes there are the Easter church services, but beyond that we have nothing to do that day, no kids to hide eggs for, etc.  Everyone's plans that day are wrapped around kid's and egg hunts.  (I am NOT downing anyone for that!)  But...  when people ask what we are doing for Easter, what do I tell them? 

Having those feelings about Easter made me look forward to Mother's Day?  Uggghhhhh... 

Yes, I can be strong a lot of the time and talk to people who ask about CNBC, but sometimes my best coping mechanism is to walk away.  I gather up my heart, trust in God, and walk away from it all.


  1. Jen, I know what you can do for Easter.....Load yourself up and come hide eggs (the ones in our chicken coop don't count) with our youngin's. And picnic, of course. We'd LOVE to see you!
    Loves and Hugs!

  2. I know how hard it is, especially Mothers Day. I have found over the years that it does get easier but in the meantime walking away is the best way. On Mothers Day I get to church as the service starts and try to get out before everyone else so I don't have to hear say "happy Mother's Day" to me. I know they are trying to be nice but it rts all the same. Hang in there, I'll be praying for you.